I feel like I don’t have control over my own mouth and I just blurt out my thoughts, pretty much every thought I have comes out of my mouth and I don’t mean for all these things to get said. They started me on Adderall. I sometimes forget till last min their bills an ours! I’m going to leave it at that, and try to finish an essay that is due tonight that I’ve put off writing for weeks. My thoughts feel like bullets being repeatedly shot in my head. And then other times I feed on that energy in the house and im “too much”. They have a voice in their head telling them, “you should go work on your paper now, not repaint the guest room”. Every movement every passing conversation every leaf on a tree, your mind is trying to pick something to focus on and it can’t decide for the life of you on what it should pick. To use MY intellect and MY reputation for those who lie, cheat and steal? I am getting better at coping daily. When mi go deh Jesus will be there Cause the thing carnal it nuh bad habit I just have two settings ie 1 OR 10 ! I wanna try somethin' right now See they don't do this anymore I'ma sing something And I want the guys to sing wit' me They go "It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?" The demon wins most of the time in my decision making. That is exactly the way I am about work. (I have ADHD myself so I may never finish). Who’d have thot of that?! Salvation free so mi a beg yuh grab it Then when my son was diagnosed and my comeback from third concussion that was a bruise to my hyppocampus and frontal lobe, where all Emotional Regulation, Impulse Control, Short term memory and pretty much all ADHD wiring is circuited – pretty much made me wired like a 7 year old with the fund of knowledge of a college grad. We all sometimes forget our keys, forget to do our assignments, leave something at home by accident, zone out during conversations, and daydream. I can’t really think of any better way to explain it. FAILURE TO LAUNCH. Depression and anxiety disorders sometimes go along with ADHD and it’s very hard to live like this and be able to go out into public and try to do “normal” things every day. The medication I take helps a lil bit so I keep taking it. My analogy is that it feels like you are in an office. However, there are upsides to ADD! He spent adequate time with me to see that I have had ADHD most of my life. I suppose the silver lining is my deep empathy and compassion for others. Then make it happen. I only cook when my children come visit why? “Why does this always happen to me? I go to grab the juice jug and abandon the stuffed animal on the top shelf of the fridge. Think before you speak…before you act…(the whole idea of controlling impulse is an oxymoron). It’s like I’ve faked a lifetime of smiles to win this Mr. Congeniality crown. It’s constantly losing your place reading, pretending to attempt to listen to a group of people and their conversation that you are supposed to involved in. You need a new psychiatrist because if he knew what he was doing, he’d also know it wouldn’t have the addictive properties for you. I’m constantly overthinking. Apparently therapy dogs, wishful thinking, and committees for change controlled by the administration that are little more than a pretence for appearing to do something helpful is supposed to help me?! Which by the way trumps almost every area of life. The artists sounds like Men At Work but it isn't:(Please let me know the title or artist. I’m curious to hear if other people can relate to this: For me, my ADD is most apparent when communicating with other people. Imagine that! It took everything I had just to get the bare minimum done. I know medication can really help that if I find the right one, but I don’t know when that’s going to happen, and the not knowing really scares me. See how you are? My grandson has been diagnosed with ADD and I am looking for an answer about how he feels and how I can help him in school. But I’ve learned it’s the opposite actually: that I gain clarity when I put myself in motion. To be honest, I started to accept that this is how I will feel most of the time. We get angry and frustrated because WHY IS THE PUPPY BARKING? But I don’t want to say that because 1. Although more widely known, ADHD still is considered more an annoyance than a disorder. If I could fix myself, I would. The wealthy are getting richer on the backs of the disposable poor. Take me there, Take me there tes I wanna go there (rep 3) I’ve also been doing meditation on-and-off the past 15 years and it hasn’t helped much either. I want to get rich and get rich FAST. imagine standing in a dark room, a light shining down on you (my inner mind). I want to get better, how do I get the help I need? Then when I snap out of it and realize what I’ve forgotten or missed. Mine sometimes reminds me of a handful of bouncy rubber balls ..you know , like the kind you get out if those quarter bubblegum machines ? It’s wanting to be helpful but afraid so therefore just choosing to freeze and be paralyzed. – “Of course not, you can if you want, but don’t feel the pressure to entertain anyone. ?” But at the end of the day (that is if your mind let’s your day end) your adhd isn’t going to go away. Edit and format like a boss. I understand the frustration you are going through. Even going through all these comments I copied & pasted all the ones that resonated with me-do you realize how much time that took? ADHD: Reading your description/comments was like giving words to my thoughts. Slowly but surely we are finding the things that work for me to help me be successful. The other part is only being able to focus on that project or whatever I’m managing to focus on instead for a few minutes without thinking of something unrelated. He took Concerta until grade 6. These two both keep your mind off What’s important, and only what’s important to them. I’m gonna need to start chapters here. I’ll be thinking more about that. Like watching a tv when someone else has the remote and is flipping thru all the channels. As you get older, you’ll how to control yourself better and realize that your mind is brilliant. It’s shame. It is an unwritten novel about my mother. I will crack people up on facebook and they think my life is great. Non linear as fuck. For me, it was a mission. I feel like I need external accountability and a team structure around me to help do the shitty things I can’t do, and I work better when having someone to bounce ideas off of, as well. ADHD feels like you’re screaming for someone to understand you but no matter how much you talk (word vomit) they don’t understand. However, to have the best impact on those cold cognitions, some people need a high dose of a stimulant to get there. I thought everyone’s thoughts were like mine. I am homeless and can’t stop spirolling down to find I gave up and now just servive day to day and wish I could stop caring at all to just not feel the pain in it all Like, imagine if you were in one of those Chuck E. Cheese ticket blaster things, but all of those tickets are your thoughts, and the big super-awesome best ticket is the most important thought, and it changes several times a minute. One of ADHD’s prime features is that we have an interest driven neuro system. Mixed emotions, now who's to care. So while I came in the front-door 10 minutes ago, I cannot tell you where I put my keys: I can suddenly snap out of my thoughts, to find I am driving in completely the wrong direction: I can put the breakfast serial box in the fridge; forget a name that has been told to me 3 times; and completely forget an appointment because I am so engrossed. We just have a lot going on at once in our beautiful brains. It is every incomplete task and the unrealized dreams that haunt my sleep. I’ve had a similar experience- I call it the totem pole. He said I just trail off or change the subject. (but it is a little fun)) and so it goes with most things… Sometimes it is so emotional I don’t know where to begin. I’m having neuro-psych testing in April for “memory problems”. But for some reason, It felt like i didn’t even take meds that day. I feel like I’m forever letting people down because I just can’t work the way they do, and I have a lot of fear that this way of thinking is going to preclude me from the life I want to live. It is an algebra test taken while loud jazz music plays in a crowded restaurant. Both our bodys seems to really work well with one called Vyvanse. In certain cases, it can be understandable to feel that way. It will take you back to all the times in your life where you wondered why you couldn’t remember things, or get things done, or felt stupid because you couldn’t repeat something interesting you heard. My boyfriend and I just had an argument because he says I hijack all our conversations. You’re desk is a mess, paperwork is late, your co-workers complain, You’re fired (13 yr & 7 yr careers that you loved), (so called “loved ones”) you’d be late to your own wedding/funeral HA HA HA. Dealing with cable, electric, phone, internet companies over the phone… Absolute torture! It can be the most simple sentence you can think of and I still will not be able to process it. Every six months or so my psych ups the dosage because of the fade effect of Ritlan. I've been thinking about all afternoon. Caleb, I have used that analogy all week! It’s really exhausting, because my minds moving at a 100000000mph and I just can;t keep up. That’s actually impressive. Both are slightly staticy. Pure treasure in a heaven weh dem caan rab it It’s deciding what to do first but can’t, not finishing anything or starting. Usually I will have a minute of relief that my mind can finally rest. I found it!! My medicine is absolutely crucial to my functioning as an adult. The tasks are written over each other, the reminders overlapping and clashing, and I can never tell what’s important and what isn’t. I’ve done to the conclusion it’ll turn up eventually instead of stressing about it. I talk out loud without even realizing it making people think i’m crazy. As they say, ya get what ya worked for, I’m just glad that I didn’t do anything bad , but just did everything by the rules. If their office isn’t equipped to test you, they should be able to point you to somewhere that can. 3. Spend more time looking for things ice put in the are place. After my diagnosis, I’m choosing to look at the bright side of it. I want to purse and education in something that interests me (which I’ve always tried to do) instead of ending up in a job I hate because it’s a job. I know exactly how you feel. 52 Pick Up is when you really want to hang with your older sib, and they endulge you by allowing you in on their game of 52 Pick Up – a “game” where they toss a deck of cards into the air and then tell you to “pick up the cards.” Having ADD is not just a game of 52 Pick Up – it’s picking up the cards whilst walking on all the marbles your little brother just threw on top of them. I’ve thought about college but I’m not sure that those programs interest me. It’s realizing when people look at you weird that either you said something awkwardly or strange. I think something makes perfect sense but when I say it out loud no one understands. But if you ask me, there’s a more powerful and underlying cause. I don’t need the smiling faces of professionals who are happy to listen but contribute nothing helpful. Sometimes it feels pointless, there will always be another wall. It is just getting bombarded with information. The ADHD brain doesn’t react that way at all. I’m trying medication and some counseling too. But no, not people with ADHD. But, I relate. I’m a veteran’s wife, mom to two, and a busy professional in the Maternal Child Health field. They do not realise, it is not a choice. It actually makes me feel bad and I tend to not be myself because “my energy is to high” When I was 8 my dog and my great grandfather died, I had a heck of a time recovering from that, and when I was 11 my best friend died by suicide, – He hung himself. So I go back to my email and have no idea why I just opened my email. No one tried to helped me.’I really hope there will be a day that no one has to suffer this way. The depression and anxiety I have seems to be effecting my mind increasing more over time and I haven’t found anything that’s helpful (even switching different meds, therapy, etc.) It’s gonna suck when folks find out and they revoke my title and take back the crown. While this is going on I can listen to 2 or 3 conversations going on and be thinking about all of them, plus answering the phone and helping a customer. Billy is his name and he is exhausting, I think for him, have to do for him many things unlike my other children and know I will always be looking out for him. There’s unopened mail on the table, you have no idea what to make for dinner, a light bulb went out, and you haven’t returned your friend’s text message. One more? The sheer amount of energy it takes an add/ adhd brain to start and complete a task is unfair. It’s constant anxiety and paranoia of when is my next screw up or failure going to occur. Feel free to email me anytime , Yes my dear, I do understand. My mind in constant motion without an off switch. An energy drink, pot of coffee and giant 64 oz cola or something or I will be up all night. This lead to rapid weight gain and troubles sleeping at night. are all being blown all over the office, and as soon as you grab one paper, there are ten more in its place flying around. I imagine for non-ADHD procrastinators they are aware they are avoiding something. So i will be working on something, and listening to someone talk, but suddenly my brain hops onro another plane. I feel unreliable and like a burden. As soon as I relax it is like my brain is in Lala land relative to the rest of the world, and I don’t get anything done properly. Finally. adhd or not ((: Does anyone else have extreme lack of focus while driving? I have been on a high dose of the ADHD medication (concerta) for over 20 years. Wow, for not having a diagnosis, that description is spot on! I’ll take it off then put in the hamper but then i see my hamper is full so instead of putting on a new shirt I’m separating dirty clothes and putting them in the washer. This is so wrong, and you most definitely should never do this, but I was in high school and thought no big deal (wasn’t thinking about the possibly illegal or “technical drug abuse” side of it) and I ran out of my prescription one day and needed my medication, the pharmacy was close so i didnt get my refill, so I took one of my brothers 75mg. I’ve written “MAKE YOUR CAR PAYMENT” at least six times this week, but somehow they’ve all gotten lost between “Binge watch Doctor Who” and “Just one more chapter” and “Spaghettio’s sound really good right now…”. For me I just feel like they told everybody else what the rules were, but not theme. I went directly to a psychiatrist who specializes in adult ADHD, you might look it up and see if there is someone like that in your area! Are YOU going to therapy by yourself to learn tricks about how to appropriately help/understand your ADD loved one? I can tell you that for me, having ADD feels like a game of whack-a-mole. for ex in 3rd grade i got stuck in a laundry shoot, in 4th grade i got my head suck in a bench, this year I got my shoe stuck on the school roof, in 5th grade I brought a horse mask to school, and many many more. Sometimes I want to talk or tell a story and I cannot get all my thoughts out. I could easily remember radio/tv jingles, song lyrics, even what my friends and I played on the playground; when it came to more important things like tests, or public events (like spelling bees or speech meets) my mind would slowly go blank, as if shaking and etch-a-sketch. I was diagnosed in my late 20s (I’m now in my early 40s), and this is really the first time I feel like there are other people out there who get it. It’s like my brain is a toddler who screams “I don’t want this, I don’t want this, I don’t want this” when something is boring, and I try to drag him to where I want him but he fights and squirms and tries with all his strength to bring me back to just staring at nothing with a distant gaze. Sometimes it can be beautiful and also discordant and harsh. The one thing I’ve learned that helps is keeping a log and writing down all my thoughts. The softly raining colorful post it notes. I feel like I am constantly putting on a show. Even if you know for a fact which feather is the most important and that doesn’t change, the other feathers still seem too precious to be let go, especially if it seems like maybe you can grab one or two of those on your way to the most important one, which slips away. As I get older I feel way more overwhelmed than ever. (Gifted people are way harder on themselves.-I’ve got one of those as well) Medication alone can’t solve the problem it has to be a two part approach. When it got like that, I would just fall backwards off the cliff and my brain would feel as it does before blacking out. Did you find it a positive or negative experience? I sincerely hope that’s not the case and she understands and responds to your feelings. Hello, my name is Pixie. Constant, unforgiving motion. My girlfriend always makes comments like I am fudging around in the car to much. It is frightening that EACH and EVERY one of the metaphors on this page apply so well. I have a wife who I wish felt like a friend instead. It’s my driving force that keeps the chip on my shoulder to never give up on my goals. Then people laugh at me. I still find social gatherings stressful – it’s hard to converse because I can’t screen out all the other chatter that’s going on around me, and often I need to take time out and sit in a quiet space for a while. I have to have 3 to 4 hours after work to wind down, but I could have to be up at 3 AM or work till 10 PM , not one day, but back to back days. People want you to react a certain way because thats what they are used to. I did figure out the time thing & working backwards from the time I need to leave for somewhere & figuring out how much time I need for each activity. Just checked and I have 1,240 tabs open in Chrome and 23 in Edge… Good thing I have a powerful tower, I guess, haha. PS. I hate “Boring Lecture” classes such as English or mathematics because I zone out and I don’t realize that until the teacher calls on me and I realize that I don’t even know which page that we were on. Everyone is different and what works for one person may not for another. That’s not what I want. You don’t wanna know how long it took me to post these few paragraphs to this link. It’s like clearing brain RAM. I was a little girl put in the back of class rooms by teachers who labeled me unintelligent, stupid etc. Stay humble nuh badda get fussy Sometimes I can’t sit still for 5 minutes. I dont know if that’s adhd, my dr says it is. Wow, I really like your description, Janae. That is constantly happening in the background while I am trying to just hold onto 1 thought. I was the only one to use pointillism in my class, and I chose the hard way for seemingly no reason. That’s my analogy about medication. A lot of the time I fall behind while doing my make up because I don’t realize I’ve taken so long because it doesn’t “seem” like a 15 or 20 minute task. Get to my room and I don’t know why I just got here. When you hear about a disorder, you can’t help it. Then in Dec tested for ADD. Oh yes, we do. By the end of work I’m heading home replaying conversations. For me its like when something is taking a minute to load and you start pressing more buttons, and all of a sudden they all register at once and everything freezes up and shuts down. Day to day it was extreemly difficult to keep track of things and tasks. Less TVs, still trying to focus on all of them…better, but not perfect, meds yes better but not perfect.. no quick fix Treading water, swimming through waves, and watching for stingrays. I have 2 degrees and two professional certificates. Think back to the episode where SpongeBob is learning to be a waiter in squidward’s “fine dining” restaurant. I agree with those who say that anyone who says they understand and does not actually have ADHD cannot comprehend the true hell of it. I was 26 years old when I started medication & therapy for this. Try medication again, Straterra is a good start to try or he could try an antidepressant. It’s sad because people thing you don’t care when you don’t remember. Money for school isn’t infinite—I can’t afford to experiment recklessly, and also being almost 40 year old and still not independant. I feel like normal people have some sort of filter in between their conscious and subconscious mind, stopping random or irrelevant ideas from interrupting their task at hand, and people with adhd still have a filter, but it’s full of holes, and when i’m trying to do something or think, random thoughts keep leaking through the holes in the filter. I spent nearly 4 hours reading only 1/5 of your article. The way I am is all starting to make sense now I have researched ADD and ADHD. Does anyone else only know lyrics to some songs? All the papers (invasive thoughts, to-do lists, reminders, important information, etc. I feel like if I can be comfortable with the fact that I won’t hear much, I am able to operate socially much better, but as soon as my brain STARTS thinking about thinking, or I have another negative emotion like sadness or frustration from the get-go, the whole thing turns into a downward spiral. Sometimes I’m carrying one specific thing in my hand and I forget it’s in my hand so I look around my house for 5 minutes until realize it was in my hand the whole time. I see my oldest going in a similar direction, as he prepares to graduate from high school this year. Drugs and alcohol only provided a temporary distraction, with the predictable results. It’s like a high you can’t escape, or too much caffeine without the actual caffeine and your brain goes in a million places at the same time, all except the one place your supposed to be in, and you realize that you just spent ten minutes staring at a page of a si-fi book thinking about why grass is green and if a rhino really is a unicorn and a gazillion other random topics. If you haven't tried anal sex, you might be curious what it feels like. (the list goes on). Seeing people with 20, 30, 40 year careers seems so out of this world to me. It’s like watching 5 different hockey games simultaneously happening on the same rink and trying to only follow one game (that is keep track of one puck). And the ride goes so fast, that I have a thousand thoughts and only minutes have past. I always noticed eventually that I had quit listening but by that time class would be over or onto a new subject. I can keep track and know exactly where I was in so many different thoughts and go back into it and resume where I left off. No matter what the people say I could never stand up straight, I could never reach my hand up to grab my goal (which really hit hard because an adolescent I could do whatever I put my mind to). Being forced off the medication that kept me borderline functional is bad enough, but confronting the sheer helplessness (now amplified after experiencing some of the beneficial effects of drug therapy) with mature insight into how truly unmanageable all this really is anyway– that is crippling in its own right. Due to my diagnosis, I would speak quickly, and people wouldn’t be able to understand what I was saying. It’s not like I don’t enjoy it, I just enjoy other things more or forget about my school stuff. Was that today or yesterday. You’re all labradors, and you keep telling me: “Just jump into the water, quickly swim across, and get the ball”. My days are spent losing and finding things. There’s also a significantly larger amount of semen. Have taken him to many many different Psychologists and counselors. He is very smart but has all the symptoms . ), and it’s this: I can’t try harder until I try it differently. No matter how aware of the situation you may be, you can’t control or tame the thoughts that cross your mind, sometimes your own brain is fighting your every will to actually do the stuff that you need to do, other times it feels as if you’ve formed a temporary truce, and become a powerhouse of productivity, but one wrong move could set you back into a full on war. So what’s adhd like with your meds? But it’s also what makes me who I am, it’s me like it or not. To me ADHD feels like Im in a formula 1 race with a drag car because formula 1 typically has outrageous turns and Drag cars have enormous turning radiuses. The point I’m trying to get across is: It’s easy for professionals in health care or in administration to think they know what’s going on. The track goes straight down at a 70 deg pitch, at night with lights. In order to do this though, I have to empty one hand, so I set down the pencil. I’m starting on stimulants as of yesterday and have never been happier in my life. Sounds like every single morning of mine. This can sometimes have a dampening effect on your mood, emotions, spirit, etc. And out of order Atm Maybe worse, plenty of them are our own, directed at ourselves. You only get one life. It makes for understanding that your brain may be this way and also developing techniques and tools tailored to you. Because I’m still trying to understand myself too pls pls reply. Once I figured out what I liked it only took 10 years for the first 2 degrees. While reading, I searched about supermassive blackholes (because i’m fascinated about astronomy that and my brain wanted to..), then I searched about LIGO and gravitational waves (because wikipedia lead me to..), then I searched about Nolan latest movie “Dunkirk” (between Kip Thorne is on wiki page and he worked with Nolan), then I searched about Weinstein because I read a beef between Rose and Meryl because it attracted my eyes on side “ad” articles and finally after reading all of this. It’s extremely frustrating. But with ADHD, sometimes it seems like it doesn’t do the job right, or the filters got big holes in it. It feels like there is a huge weight on my shoulders that I can’t shrug off, ... and I know they will help me get through my next major depressive episode too. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to understand what it means to have adhd as an adult. So that’s part of my story. Be kind to yourself. It’s still annoying, but at least we understand that it’s just being a normal puppy. Yeah, it feels as if i am sitting here. No more grabbing. Not threat- or reward-driven. Sometimes it’s just gotta be REAL! I stopped and said this aloud to myself, they are exactly the words I needed. Managed to get into a private high school. But until then I’ll never learn my lesson and I’ll just keep on living life as a crash test dummy. I cannot pass through the window. A lot of ADHD people usually love to stay active because most are hyper people. It is the effort that leads to the failure and the realization and acceptance of “IMPOSSIBLE”. Then, without realizing it, you have done this a hundred times and never noticed that the thing you were looking at in the middle left 10 minutes ago. Because I know my bosses have never really understood or known why I have really been late for work so often, I feel anxiety every time I am late for fear of getting fired. 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